when you feel a bit invisible

This woman, Jennifer Rothschild, is one of my favourite people on the planet – one of the most empathetic, wisest, most down-to-earth humble women. At the young age of fifteen, Jennifer was diagnosed with a rare, degenerative eye disease that would eventually steal her sight. In the midst of living blind — literally living in an invisible world — Jennifer has taken her message of encouragement, across the country speaking at national and regional gatherings and is the author of 10 books, including her newest book, Invisible: How You Feel is Not Who You Are. It’s  humble privilege for this farm girl to be joining Jennifer at a Fresh Grounded Faith event in November in Evansville, IN (could Jennifer and I personally encourage you there?) … Jennifer has a very sensitive, tender word today… for you or someone you desperately love who’s in a real hard place:

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“I  needed God to rescue me. I couldn’t rescue myself.” Hannah S.

Hannah was stuck.

What started as a choice had become a chain. Fear enslaved her.

She was broken — emotionally manipulated and verbally abused by the man she loved.

For three years, he told her she wasn’t good enough. She wasn’t smart enough. She wasn’t thin enough.

She wasn’t enough.

She became more isolated.

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He didn’t like her friends or family. He eventually forbid her to have contact with them. He became the only voice she heard.

Constant disapproval and outbursts followed by silence was her daily fare. She fought hard against her growing feelings of insignificance and insecurity. She admitted, “I just felt invisible.”

She loved him though.

At least she loved the idea of him.

At first, she didn’t want to leave and later, she just couldn’t leave. His manipulation and abuse had formed an invisible barbed wire fence around her life.

Every time she sensed that her normal was not normal, emotional confusion paralyzed her. Maybe she was who he said she was?

Hannah often turned to the Bible for comfort. However, Scripture stung her; it hurt. The man she loved had used the Bible as one of his weapons — the stealthiest weapon imaginable — to beat her down.

He was quick to point out her sin. He would quote Scripture to explain why she was a failure and disappointment to God. He created rules and regulations that he claimed were biblical to dictate what she wore, where she went, and how she talked.

Her spirit was crumbling, but deep down there was a vapor of strength.

It stirred beneath the rubble of her broken spirit. Though she was chained up with fear and enslaved by insecurity, she sensed a stubborn strength yanking on those chains.

Something in her knew the God she trusted wasn’t the twisted taskmaster her lover claimed.

Something in her knew that how she felt was not who she was.

One night, Hannah took the Bible into her shaky hands and instead of it being a baseball bat that beat her up, it became the blanket that warmed and comforted her. It became the key that unlocked her heart.

Through tears, Hannah read the words in Isaiah, about how Jerusalem had “relied on oppression and depended on deceit” (Isaiah 30:12).

God used His Word to help her see that even though she hated the oppression she was under, she had trusted it—she was dependent on it.

God used His beautiful Word to gently show her that she was like Judah — trying to draw identity and acceptance from oppression. And, like Judah, she too was deceived. So she cried to God, “Rescue me, I cannot rescue myself.”

And He did. God rescued her.

But, His rescue was — and is — painful.

God’s rescue came in the form of another woman. Her man — the man who demanded her faithfulness—the man whose love she longed for, callously showed up at the café where Hannah worked with a woman—another woman.

Without explanation, Hannah was out. Rejected.

Again, she felt totally invisible.

But, rejection was her rescue.

“God knew that I wouldn’t leave — I couldn’t leave — without such a radical rejection.”

Now she is free from that man and his lies and oppression. Yet, she grieves for her lost years. She is still detangling the web of lies she has believed. She struggles with feelings of guilt and shame.

But how she feels is not who she is!

God rescued her to restore her.

He didn’t just rescue her from the situation; He rescued her to Himself.

God rescued her into His love — His love gives; it doesn’t take.

His love frees; it does not enslave.

His love gives her identity; it doesn’t take it from her.

You may be Hannah or feel like Hannah. Or you may love a Hannah. Maybe the words you are reading right now are your rescue?

God rescues you to restore you.

He frees you to cover you with grace — not control you with guilt.

You may have trusted in oppression and be stuck in lies and feel beaten down and incapable of rescuing yourself.

God can and will rescue you. Cry out to Him. Embrace His rescue even if He pulls it off in a way you don’t expect — even if the rescue is painful.

Trust more in Him than you trust in the oppression that has crushed and controlled you.

Oh my friend, He sees Hannah and He sees you.

You are not invisible to God.

 

Using the love story of Hosea and Gomer as the guide, Jennifer Rothschild delves into the roots of our identity. In Invisible, you’ll see the “me” in Gomer – a woman deeply loved, chosen and prone to wander. You can find out more about the book and get a Free Audio Book for a limited time at www.theInvisibleBook.org.

The truths found in this new release: Invisible: How You Feel is Not Who You Are?  Is a life-giving, powerful hope for every woman.

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